He`s a stranger to me now. He looks very different to how I knew him. And the way he dealt with the whole thing. He`s just a very different man.

I am not trying to give an image of a fairytale, perfect, everything else, I am just being myself.

I was reading so much about myself in the papers that was not me.

I wanted to step forward and be on TV and for people to see who I really was.

I felt bad because of the kids and his family, but she was rarely there. He was really lonely. I made him happy and in a way gave him what he wanted.

I did not know what my future was going to hold.

I got a phone call saying we are from the News of the World, and we`re exposing you and David Beckham. My heart did not beat for a minute.

I wanted control over what was said and what was not said, rather than holding my head down in shame.